Wednesday, May 2, 2012
I Don’t Wanna Work (whining involved)
But, I don't wanna bang on these drums all day. That's the hubby's plan.
I find myself feeling the true meaning of burnout. The link is an excellent description from the Mayo Clinic. Maybe I've been there for a while.
I LOVE the job that I do. I said that not too long ago in the post about being a Navigator. Loving what one does is not the same as loving the job. To all of my BCH peeps, I think you're amazing and I am so lucky to have great clinical staff around me.
My job constraints are what I struggle with. My standard schedule is 11a-11p. I am assigned to 4 units, plus responding to the ED traumas. Twelve hours of feeling pulled all over the place is hard. I have done it for over three years simply because I love what I DO.
I find myself wishing more and more that I could take a long break and just write. It's impossible when I work this regularly, then the part-time hours elsewhere. I do it and don't sleep enough. I miss out on feeling good enough to keep my house pristine. I miss out on settling down to watch my favorite show when it's on. I miss out on finishing the library book I checked out two weeks ago, when on vacation, I can read 5 in a week.
I used to juggle so much more when Olivia was alive. But, that was from home and not a concrete guideline. I was a different person, then, too. For my other blogger friends and already accomplished writers: How do you organize your time if you're not just a writer? Where do you fit your dream into your reality?
*This blog is my personal view. I am not an official Medical Center Spokesperson.*