I do not have Tourettes! It's just a sound I make, damn it! However, I am beginning to truly believe it is stress related. I am getting way overwhelmed with wedding stuff. I think I have developed a twitch on my left side. My already poor sleep habits are even more atrocious. My fuse is frighteningly short and very sparky.
I'm not a Bridezilla by any means. I have great friends who are helping me out. Kelly's parents have been fantastic. There are some things that aren't going exactly as I'd like and I'm stressing over them. There are some things that can't be taken care of until the last minute and I'm stressing over them. There are some things that just aren't going to happen or happen like I want and I'm stressing over them. There are outside stressors that have shown themselves which are out of my control and tearing me down. I'm trying to just breathe and let it go, but somfb that is hard.
I'm working as usual. I'm tyring to spend as much time with Justin, who is doing great, as I can. I'm just very overwhelmed and that's the only word I can think of that's even close to appropriate.
Last night, a very angry parent came at me verbally and I'd never even seen him before. I can handle most anything, but I'm not in the best place right now. I handled it fine, but I seriously wanted to punch him in the face. I thought, perhaps, I should go back to my words and get a little bit out before I was reduced to physical violence.