You Wouldn't Like Me Angry

where did the bunny come from?

Like the Hulk, don't make me angry....

Let's be brutally honest; even if not publicly, then with ourselves.  How many of us mothers would always, capital A, put our children first?  Casey Anthony's mother did in the end.

I don't even mean to go that far.  I think she committed a crime in itself, but I'm making a point.

My point is that for 12 years, pregnancy and death included, Olivia has been number one in my life.  I was brought to tears this morning when another ferocious Mama Bear endured the heat to Princessify her grave once again.  MP, you are tha bomb.  I was brought to tears again this afternoon when I was berated for announcing and showing the condition of Olivia's grave by another mother. 

As any bereaved parent, mothers specifically, will tell you:  There is not the tiniest way in which anyone can begin to comprehend this walk unless they are walking it.  We hope you never comprehend it.  I believe it takes mothering to a whole new level.  It's as if we guard our mother status like the Pentagon, particularly those of us who lost our only children.  Guarding Olivia's grave is all I can do for her now.   You mess with that, you're messing with dangerous territory.

I will not back down.  I will not apologize.  I did  nothing wrong.  My daughter's life, death, and memory are far more important to me than anyone or anything else.   I'll accept my judgement from God himself and no mortal, thank you very much.